Poh Poh...

Pohpoh....welcome back! I finally get to see you, although not in real person, but I am happy that you are back. I hope you are too! Many of your relatives and friends attended your event, I am sure you saw all of them. The fact that you are no longer in person still hurts all of us. We miss you a lot, I miss you a lot. Seeing your favorite attire, bring tears automatically. The memories came flashing back. I hope you are settling in well in the new permanent place. Pohpoh...may I ask a favor from you? May you watch upon GongGong? He has been sad since your departure and has not been himself. He has lost his appetite as well as not able to sleep well. I know that all these are because he misses you a lot and you meant so much to him. You know that he loves you so much. Please would you watch over him and bless him please? Pohpoh...everyone miss you...please take good care of yourself because we are not able to render our care. You have always been strong and I know you will look after yourself and will watch over GongGong. Pohpoh....I miss you....may you rest in peace...

My dearest beloved grandma, 1936 - 2013

Poh Poh,
This is how I call you ever since I learned to speak. Since I was born, you have always been giving. Love, care, time, patience, gifts, food, just anything that I ever wanted, you are always ready to shower me with. When I was younger, you always bring me with you to everywhere, proudly. You have always been patience with me, always very accommodative to what I want, always very supportive of what I do, always very proud of what I achieve. You brought me for my first facial, my first gym. You taught me how to cook my favorite dishes because you always make them so yummy. The list goes on and on. I am sorry that I did not spend enough time with you when I started to get busy with my own life. You have never complaint. Poh Poh, Poh Poh, allow me to still call for you. You are the only Poh Poh that I have and you are the greatest Poh Poh. You have been strong to endure the challenges that lies for you the past few years and you did well. I know you did well for us, and we are proud of you. Now that you are physically not around us but I know that you are always with us. Please look after gong gong, for he misses you so dearly. Please help him to stay strong. Poh Poh, we miss you. Poh Poh, you are done with the battle, please rest. Poh Poh, don't worry about us, we will take good care of ourselves and we will take good care of gong gong. Poh Poh, I promise you that I will visit you when I can. Poh Poh, take care...
Your ever loved granddaughter.

白色情人節

上年的今天，我送上我小小的心意給你。還記得我當時小心翼翼的準備著包裹，一定要准時的寄出，希望你會喜歡。很高興你如期收到，期望你喜歡。

今年的今天，為了生活，辛苦你了。我會繼續的支持你，dear，加油吧！

為了我們還有好多的明天加油吧！

You are not perfect but it is your imperfect that made my life perfect.
Thank you for everything.

原來是我...太在乎

Today, is a very emotionally turmoil day. I realized I have low EQ when it comes to handling things that are exceptionally dear to my heart. I cried, yet, it can't get rid of the downs inside my heart. I am starting to realized that I am starting to lose grip of my life because I am so afraid to lose the center of my life, him. I also realized that I have put him the center of my life, without realizing it. Honestly, I think this has created pressure to our relationship. It has created pressure for him in addition to his busy schedule. Not a very smart move, yes I know. I hope it is not too late to correct things.
Well it is not wrong to put your other half as the center of your life but it has to be perfect timing. Because if he is already super busy, and needing to make sure that you are still surviving, it will be additional unnecessary pressure on him.
So I need to get a grip and start identifying what do I want to achieve and set that as my focus for now. I sincerely hope today's realization will not be too late. You can do it!! Dear, I am sorry if I have caused unnecessary frustrations to you. Please understand it wasn't intentional. I will wish and pray for your future undertaking.

Thank you 2012

Time passes so quick and today marks the last day of 2012.
2012 has been lovely to me. Of course there are still some ups and downs but it made 2012 who it is. It has allow me to learn and grow a lot, both personal and work.
I have cried so hard at nights yet I have also had the sweetest moments and I could not have asked for more. Some of the highlights of 2012:
- I changed my 15 year old car.
- I got more handbags and purses.
- he came to visit. *ultimate big grin*
- I moved departments and got promoted..oh yeah~
- I had the biggest argument with my mom.
- I went back to US for holidays...and had a white Christmas. ^_^
- I felt sick and I recovered, I cried and I laughed
So to 2012, thank you very much for everything that you have given me. You might be gone but I will cherish our memories.
Looking forward to a GREAT 2013!!

回憶

心血來潮的整理櫃子裡的東西…
把一盒一盒的盒子打開…慢慢的go through每樣東西…回憶一幕幕的出現在我腦裡…
甜的，酸的，苦的，辣的，開心的，落淚的，曾經的，都一幕幕的重播著…
我不討厭這些回憶…因為它都是我以歲月換回來的…沒有它也就沒有現在的我…
結果我一樣一樣的放回原位…把盒子蓋上…放回原位…^_^
感謝這些陪我成長的回憶…讓我學會了許多…也讓我的人生添加了色彩…

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