Hmmm...

Have been wanting to hear this music, finally it is playing however I do not feel the joy, instead 感覺心酸... do not know why...guess I was expecting the delivering of this music differently...I hope this music will continue to bring me joy like how it used to be...

Heard a news yesterday and that got me thinking....some things happen for a reason and many of the times, it is not as bad as how we anticipated it to be....so I guess the lesson is that we should not be defensive and assume that what happened is bad...we should accept it with an open mind because when we start to think defensively we are only making the situation worst....

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Since the change of my role back in March, everything is so different, career wise. Everything happened so fast, to begin with, I was not given an option not to take this new role. Maybe it is a good move but it was not what I have been anticipating but since I have no choice so I agreed to it plus I do not want to be potentially put into the cold storage. Juggling between 2 department is definitely not an easy task especially when 1 of it is a brand new team, although there is a project manager but he is as useless as he can be. At the beginning, I was energetic and was going all the way to solve everything. As the day goes by, my energy level is running low, with no possible of having AL, I am seriously in need of a good rest but there are just too much work related concerns going through my mind. Sometimes I was thinking to myself if I have made the correct move but it does not serve it purpose to think this way now, guess I am just thinking too much. I think I just need to make sure everything is working fine then I can take a long holiday to recharge. Body is aching after massage, and I thought massage is supposed to help relax my muscle but I guess not, has been aching for the past 2 days, crap! Last weekend and this coming weekend, I need to bring visitors around, there goes my rest day. Last 2 weekend (week of 30th April) has been great, thank U (you know who you are) for making that weekend so enjoyable....