Christmas eves...

another interesting Christmas eve I just had...and one is more interesting than another...

in 2008, christmas eve, C ........
in 2009, peaceful Christmas eve...wished A was here...
in 2010, Christmas eve, B ..... sigh... wished A was here...

what is with guys and Christmas eve...or rather what is with intoxicated single guys on christmas eve...

eve was just yesterday...what has happened is still very fresh in my mind...I was shocked...still am...
however...my decision is clear...very clear...but maybe it came too sudden so i m still in shocked state?

anyhow...thank u to all of U...for giving me memorable Christmas eves....

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to GIVE or to RECEIVE?

Do you prefer to be the giver or the receiver?
Many people thinks that it would be ideal to be the receiver...just sit and relax and receive...
I have just be a giver...to my surprise...I am equally as thrilled, excited, and most importantly happy once I gave IT out...
施比收更有福....
Try to be the giver...you will be surprised with the satisfaction it brings...

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朋友, 加油吧!

好久沒見也沒聯絡了...
突然在聯絡網上看到你的消息...
當時的記憶回來了...
小學就認識了而且也成為好朋友...
認識你這麼多年...
從來沒預料過你既然會...
謝謝你帶給我的驚喜...開心...和關心...

很高興看到你別來無恙...
加油吧!

Don't take back...

Don't take back what was given out....
Irregardless if it is actions, items, or words....
To you, it may seems inexpensive but to the recipient, it could be priceless....
So please think carefully if this 'thing' that you will be giving to them before giving....
Thank you...

Am I in trouble?

Time flies....we are only 2 months away from 2011...
I can still recall the time when we just step into 2010...it was just like yesterday...

October was worth documented, no matter how bad that month went but 1 weekend was more than sufficient to cover all the downs. Although the final week of October was difficult but it can be written off.

November so far has been a turmoil. I guess when you are not too happy, you tend to start to think negatively, whatever that pops into your mind will turn negative. Family, relationship, work, self, everything seems to be so out of place. I started to question myself if this is my self doing. At some point, I kinda hated myself. This is so scary, to me. To some, you might think that this is normal. But to those that knows me, I am not like this. The happy me seems to have lost its way. Rather emotional lately and this has impacted my work.

This afternoon during lunch, I was not able to breath in the office, I needed to be out of the office, I needed to breath fresh air, I needed to be alone, I needed my own space. I finally found a friend to accompany me for lunch, I did not want to talk neither to be bothered but just needed a friend to seat with me. What is wrong with me? sigh....should I start to feel worried?

I am trying very hard to step out from where I am now but I cant do it....something is not right...and the frustrating part is I do not know what is wrong. What should I do? What should I do? Can someone please tell me?

生病篇

當一個人生病了...
情緒是不是會比較脆弱?
總會渴望些甚麼似的...
可能是見人異議吧...

最後還是病了...
始終人不是鐵做的...
還是會有脆弱的時候...

從台北時就因為office的事開始忙個不停...
無數的壓力再加上不休的忙碌...
也忽略了之前身體所給予需要休息的小訊號...
今天身體終於抗議了...

是時候回饋自己的身體了...
休息應該會是最好的良藥吧...

朋友...你們也要好好的照顧自己哦...

Touch Your Heart ~ Taiwan, Taipei

Have been missing in action for some time. Work has been killing me softly with demanding unreasonable Singapore customers and managing bunch of monkeys that did not show up to work and ended with termination...now..back to topic...am going to share what I have done in Taipei...of course those sharable moments la...the rest are for my own memory only...hahaha....

My trip was from 19th August ~ 23rd August, 2010. Got my tickets back in July, flew by Airasia and paid RM802 for returned, which inclusive of taxes, check in luggage (15kg going and 20kg for return), and skybus return tickets. No meals, and no seat selections. However, I must say, the flight was better than my expectation and I was lucky with the seats given. Checked in at LCCT and the crew asked if I prefer window or aisle seat, wow! impressive, so I say windows please and was assign at row 12, which is very front, business class area for commercial flights, and return, I got a window seat too! but it was 5 rows from the tail of the airplane. The flight was smooth and the landing was better than a lot of other commercial airlines.

Day 1

是嗎?

每次看了....都會覺得心酸....可是手還是會不由自主的去click它...
每次都跟自己說會看到令自己開心的....可是...
每次都是看到些自己心酸的...
為甚麼開心的還沒出現?
難道是因為這一切都不值得紀錄嗎?

雖然, 都是過去式....可是...可以被紀錄下來的....應該都有它一定的定義和地位吧...
而不被紀錄的只能代表....全都是一些不值得一提的人事物....
是嗎?

Had a long chat with a friend today...
Spoke about everything...

Was giving her some advise...
Only to realised that I should be doing the same but am not...
Things are always easier said than done...
Who am I to give advise if I am not able to live up to the advise?
Why did I not do it?
Is it because I am afraid?
Afraid to know the truth?
Afraid to face the fact?
Afraid to know the truth is not how I anticipated it to be?

As much as I would like to do it...at the very last second...I pulled back...
I know I should do it...
But I am in a dilemma...
I...I...I let fear took over....

I know that the truth might not be that unbareable...
It could be what I anticipated it to be...
But because there is a slightest chance that it could be not what I anticipated...
I...I...I let fear took over....

Did I miss something? or am I just thinking too much?
Maybe I should not have went to check it out...right now my mind is so congested...
Maybe I should have just switch off the computer and hit the sack...right now I am so confused...
Seriously caught by surprise.....
I thought....I thought....things were.....

Somehow...seems like...
I do not know it now...
And headache has found me...
Ouch.....not sure this suits where better....

世族的眼光....

世族的眼光, 真的這麼重要嗎?

有位朋友曾問我...
妳覺得我的樣子是不是有情婦look? 或是像會做二奶的?
哇....我差點把我口中的涼茶噴出來...
我的確不知道該怎麼回答她...
就很婉轉的告訴她不要太在意別人的眼光...最重要自己知道不是就好了...
原來有人說過她像...

有另一個朋友也剛剛換了車子, 蠻貴的...
變得金錢上也不太鬆動了...
他現任的車子還好好的...
要換的原因, 客人看到他開貴車會對他有多點信心...

你覺得...世族的眼光很重要嗎?
我想都是見人見智...
有些人實在太在意別人怎麼看自己而有些就不太理會...
可是我覺得...自己的人生嘛...要活出精彩...
總而言之沒有做對不起道德的...
就別太在意別人...好累咧...
自己開開心心就好....

已不再是...

曾經你是....
可是現在你已不再是...

當時你選擇了放棄...
機會放棄了...不會重來..
現在又何必...

只能說謝謝你...
因為你當時的決定...
讓我更了解自己...
我們依然只是朋友...

This was made 2 days ago...

Continuous from the previous post....incident happened in the same restaurant....

After much deliberation, I ordered chicken pate with toast as my starter. The presentation was good. Took the first bite, not up to my expectation and there were a slight not-so-good aftertaste. My mom tried, saying that it is not fresh and asked for the waiter, this time a different waiter. He brought it in to the kitchen, came back out and say that this is how it should be and that this was made 2 days ago! 2 days ago! Come on...already the customer is saying that it is not rest and you say that it was made 2 days ago! Then claims that the pate can be kept for 1 week, so am I supposed to say that "oh...then 2 days is well within the 1 week period."....speechless.....

Are you done with this?

Imagine this....

You are in a French Restaurant, just finished your main course of seafood risotto. What is left on the plate is the clam shells and prawn shells. You put your utensils together on the side to show that you are done with the meal. A ever attentive waiter approaches your table, look at you and ask "Are you done with this?"

I was so tempted to reply the following but was indecisive...

A. "Am I supposed to finish the clam shells too?"
B. "No...not really...let me chew down the clam shells too..."
C. "What do you think?"

Seriously, I don't mean to be sarcastic (or was I)...but there is NOTHING left on the plate besides uneatable things. I know that they are just trying to be polite to ask before clearing the plates but why can't they ask "May I clear this for you?" See! Doesn't this makes much more sense? I wonder how would the waiter react if I reply with response A.

不能說的秘密

剛看完不能說的秘密....
心想明天練戲裡的曲子....
所以想今晚聽....

原本抱著想聽歌曲的心情....
和看鋼琴演奏...
沒料到...到最後....哭了....
心裡所想的都不是曲子....
而是..... 而是..... 不能說的秘密.... ....

Hmmm...

Have been wanting to hear this music, finally it is playing however I do not feel the joy, instead 感覺心酸... do not know why...guess I was expecting the delivering of this music differently...I hope this music will continue to bring me joy like how it used to be...

Heard a news yesterday and that got me thinking....some things happen for a reason and many of the times, it is not as bad as how we anticipated it to be....so I guess the lesson is that we should not be defensive and assume that what happened is bad...we should accept it with an open mind because when we start to think defensively we are only making the situation worst....

blah blah blah....

Since the change of my role back in March, everything is so different, career wise. Everything happened so fast, to begin with, I was not given an option not to take this new role. Maybe it is a good move but it was not what I have been anticipating but since I have no choice so I agreed to it plus I do not want to be potentially put into the cold storage. Juggling between 2 department is definitely not an easy task especially when 1 of it is a brand new team, although there is a project manager but he is as useless as he can be. At the beginning, I was energetic and was going all the way to solve everything. As the day goes by, my energy level is running low, with no possible of having AL, I am seriously in need of a good rest but there are just too much work related concerns going through my mind. Sometimes I was thinking to myself if I have made the correct move but it does not serve it purpose to think this way now, guess I am just thinking too much. I think I just need to make sure everything is working fine then I can take a long holiday to recharge. Body is aching after massage, and I thought massage is supposed to help relax my muscle but I guess not, has been aching for the past 2 days, crap! Last weekend and this coming weekend, I need to bring visitors around, there goes my rest day. Last 2 weekend (week of 30th April) has been great, thank U (you know who you are) for making that weekend so enjoyable....

給一位車主的信

To : 沒禮貌及沒良的車主

撞到我的車子, 不但沒下車, 繼續的把你的屁股貼著你的駕駛座也就算了.
你既然連一句道歉都沒有! 當我望著你的時候, 你既然給我一個不肖的樣子.
我原本以為沒甚麼, 所以沒有追究下去也沒去看有多嚴重, 再加上當時超多車子, 可是當我回到家看才知道原來還滿傷的.
你不賠也算了, 最氣的是你連一句道歉都沒有! 還要一臉不在乎的樣子, 間直是把我氣死!
很明顯你所學的道德教育是白費的, 白費了你老師的心機.
像你這樣不理別人感受, 自私, 沒良的人, 我只能祝福你一定會有報應!!

From : 差點被你氣死的無辜車主

一大包的藥...

上個星期四, 喉嚨已經不太舒服...我當然沒管它...
星期五, 喉嚨開始抗議, 聲音開始變man了...我也照常的吃辣...
星期天, 慘了...
星期一, 更慘了...不管啦...照常上班...然後還是去了看醫生...
喉嚨痛, 咳嗽, 發燒...ok嘛....死不去的...醫生說我是聲帶發炎...
收到了一大包藥和一天病假作為手信...
回office整理一些東西就回家...吃藥...之後? 當然是昏迷...醒來後...再吃藥...又再度的不醒人事...
原本以為乖乖的吃藥會快點好...怎知...咳嗽越來越嚴重...肺都快要跑出來跟我say hi...藥也吃完了...
星期四...再度去看醫生...還是一樣的有燒, 喉嚨發炎, 咳嗽....我又榮獲的一大包的藥...噢~好開心哦...*暈*

我看我喝咳藥水就快要上癮了...超high...整個人都好開心哦...哈哈....
希望身體會快點好...病了快要兩個星期了....

痛啊~

本來喉嚨就不是太舒服的我, 現在再加上頭痛, 簡直就是煩惱...
我不喜歡生病,
因為我不喜歡看醫生,
因為我不喜歡吃藥,
因為我不喜歡生病的感覺,
加上我剛剛看了些文章, 一寫令我emotional同時也令我想太多的文章...令我的頭現在更痛了!
啊~好痛! 頭好想要爆了~

以五十步笑百步

One colleague (J) called a local bank call center pertaining to some charges that is not meant to be charged. I find that it is OK as long as you keep the conversation professional because you are in the office. But J was scolding over the phone, sounded harsh and I can hear her conversation loud and clear. I find that this is so not professional. Do they not realise that such actions actually disturb others who are working? Seriously selfish and inconsiderate. J at times need to answer calls as well and would be complaining about some customers scolding her unreasonably. This is the same thing that she is doing to others. She is scolding the person on the other end unreasonably, throwing her temper. After the call is ended, she continue to complain about the incompetencies of the rep.

Seriously, no one is interested to know what happened to your bill, I think such conversation should be kept to the minimal and of course as quiet as possible. Here you are complaining about other people scolding you, now are you are doing the same thing, so what makes you any different from those that you have complained about? 以五十步笑百步....

己所不欲, 勿施於人

人是妳(M)請的, 現在那個人符合不到你的要求, 就想推給我?

一大清早收到M的即時通, 問我需不需要請人?
我就答說正要找個6個月的part time, 然後M就說6個月應該剛好...
覺得奇怪, 我就問M是不是有好的介紹..
M就說可能會適合K...我差點從椅子掉下來...

這個K她今年54歲, 再過一年就是退休年齡..M既然把她給錄取了..*暈*

我立刻就問K的打字準確度和速度如何?
M説K很努力...
我立刻告訴M, K 可能不太適合我的部門...
M答說我應該試用K幾天再做決定...*暈*
我直接告訴M, 若K真的不適合那就直接告訴K啊...
M說可是K說她很需要這份工...哇~誰不需要工作?外面一堆比K更優的也需要這份工啊 *暈* 我好想告訴M, 每個都做不了工的職員都這樣說, 那office就會有一堆需要工作可是又達不到要求的人啦...

在面試的時候就應該想清楚對方是不是妳們要的人才啊, OK, 就算妳決定錯了, 那就請妳跟她說清楚這分工作不適合她啊, 而不是想把她給推給另一個部門啊...不要把其他部門當作DBKL...若她是做的了事的, 還可以考慮, 可是你都知道她是不行的, 那就不要浪費大家的時間和公司的資源啦...坦白一點, 對大家都好啊~

係逼, 或係注定?

歷史又重演...
兩年前發生過的, 現在正重演...
沒想過一樣的事會再發生在我的事業上...
我不喜歡在沒有選擇的情況下, 去做決定... 除非那是我想要的, then that's a different story...

可能我應該從另一個角度去想吧...
可能我應該覺得光榮, 因為除了我, 他們找不到一個更好的人選...I am da best! Yay! Hahaha....

原本已有了的計畫, 必須有所改變....in order to still achieve the same objective
船到橋頭自然直...

I should not have

I think I did it too emotionally
Am regreting it now
Yes I know it is too late
I should have calm down before doing it
Now I need to do what I can to salvage it
Lesson learnt....
Never react when I am emotional
Must count to ten to calm down...

搾到...

Why do some people blame on others when it is them who did not read their emails. The best thing is, these people can still sound 理直氣壯 in accusing you. Today there's an event organised by yours truly, the first communication was sent 2 weeks ago (2 weeks ago!) with 3 additional reminders in between, advising every related human being about today's event and that the time for the event is from 10am until 11am. Yet, after the event I received an email saying that they would love to join the even but because I did not advise the time early enough so they cannot reschedule their schedule. Oh~ then the sender found the earlier communication and replied to the email. Nope, not to apologise (想的美!) instead said that the communication did mention the event is from 10am to 11am however an exact time would be great! WTF!! So am I suppose to say it will be from 10:03am until 10:49am?! KNS! (pardon my language but I seriously beh tahan) or am I suppose to check everyone's calendar to make sure they are available before I send the communication? 間直就係在雞蛋裡挑骨頭..佢讲晒囉~ 勁! Come on...open your eyes big big to read and understand the email, don't go blaming others with some lame excuses and make people's life miserable just so that you can feel better out of it thinking that it is not your fault where ultimately it still IS...

My boss told me today that he has agreed to his boss on some arrangement about me (notice the -ed on the word agree, I was not prior notified nor has the privilege to discuss not to mention share my thoughts) and that I have no other choice. 哇! 先斬後奏! 多一個勁!!

總言之今日被兩位勁人搞到暈...

While driving...

I was on the phone while driving home today. No I was not on handsfree neither was I on speaker, thinking that since it is the peak time, the traffic police would not bother to stop me. I was right, the police did not stop me but I received a SMS from a anonymous number that reads "No chatting while driving".

I was like 邊個咁神, 咁都睇到...the best thing is, I have no clue who is this person but am pretty sure he/she knows me. Immediately, I dialed the number, and this guy was trying to be mysterious. When I ask who is this, then you get the ever famous reply from these people 妳唔知我係邊個o麼? 真係唔知啊? (如果我知, 我仲會問你係邊個o麼? more fish..)

Finally, it was my cousin brother. Haha...then I let him go.

This morning, took me 1.5hours to reach the office....&#%^@!*#%....
今日係麼o耶大日子? 點嘅全部車都出來? 唔明白....

被舞獅襲擊

是的...本小姐今天被舞獅襲擊...

吃了午餐後就在office的lobby看舞獅...
又剛巧的站在滿近的位置...
當只舞獅在猶豫該怎麼跳上桿時...它突然轉身把面靠過來嚇了我一跳...
然後轉回身continue它的猶豫...沒多久它又再次的轉身...
對著我瞻眼...心想它好可愛....怎知它忽然走向我...
把它的獅頭壓向我...不曉的它是想粘我還是咬我...
全場的觀眾都看著我被舞獅襲擊...
我還差點被它推倒...欸~它的頭真的好大哦!

第一次被舞獅耍...哈哈...好好笑~
It's a good start for the new year!

新年快樂

年三十....牛年的最後一天...
渾渾湂湂又過了個牛年....
回顧, 覺得上半年問題比較多, 下半年過得比較順...

很多都說虎年會沒那麼順...
路是自己走出來的...
過的開心或不開心其實是看你用甚麼角度來看...
你說不是嗎?

開心要過日子, 不開心也是要過日子...
何不開開心心的過每一天...
祝大家虎年順順利利, 開開心心, 健健康康, and 心想事成.

new boss

Have been missing in action for some time....

休完假回到office時, 就被老闆召去開會. 又有人事變動, 只不過這次會影響到我.
我的老闆將會是M, 這將會是1號生效.
其實, 這也不見的是件壞事, since I am looking for a change, 這可能來的正是時候.
Maybe it is fated for me to take this path so I just have to make the best out of it.
No point dwelling about this, since this path is paved for me, I shall take one step at a time and walk this path.

Wish me luck~

老友記

有些人一生都未必找到一個好朋友...更何況知己...
可是我卻很幸運的找到妳們...我的老友記...我的知己...
當我被別人欺負時, 妳們會幫我出口氣, 一起咒那個&%$#
當我開心時, 妳們會幫我慶祝...
當我難過時, 妳們會陪我渡過...
妳們比我更了解我自己, 每當我遇到了瓶頸或迷失方向時, 妳們都會拉我一把, 會盡妳們的所能幫我找回方向...

無論那些話有多難開口,
無論那些話有多難聽,
無論那些話, 我聽了有多難過
無論那些話, 我聽了會很討厭妳們
無論那些話都是我最不想聽的
妳們都會好無保留的給說完....絕不妥協...
而且會一直重複直到我真真的聽到為止...
因為妳們知道這些話是對我好的...

我知道我曾經令妳們失望...令妳們擔憂...
因為我是一個沒方向感的人..很容易迷路...
I am sorry...but thank you for 妳們的不離不棄
辛苦妳們了...

Thank you
Thank you for being the ear to listen to my frustrations
Thank you for being open and honest whenever I ask for an opinion
Thank you for being there for me 24 x 7
Thank you for all the love and care.
Thank you for being my 老友記.

衰咗...

Received a not so favorable news recently, not the best way to start my new year.
Something that I was very looking forward to will not come into realisation. My heart sank when I received the news. I thought it will go as planned but to my dissapointment, it did not, it has decided to prove me wrong. I thought things will happen if I wanted it bad enough but I was wrong.

At first, I was reluctant to accept the fact because I seriously was not prepared to take no as the answer. I kept looking for a reason, why is it a no? what I have done incorrectly? or what have I not done? yup...I did not take the outcome too well...

I finally gave up dwelling about it and accepted the fact. We do not always get what we want. No matter how bad we want it, it does not mean you will get it especially if you have no control over the decisioning. If it is not meant to be, then it would not happen, and it explained the bad news. 唯有再接再厲...加油!

Had to go back to the office for a full day training today. It has been so long since I had to be in the office for a full day on a Saturday. I think since my Auths days I have not been in the office for the weekend for a full day. While driving to the office this morning, reluctantly, I saw a teenager spitting on the pedestrian sidewalk after crossing the street. This is so uncivilised and unethical. This will reflect badly on our society but do they or the government cares? I doubt it. Sometimes, when I think about our country, seriously, I think we could have done better. With the natural resources and plantations, we should be richer. We are blessed for the strategic location with no earthquakes nor volcanoes. The weather is beautiful year round, we have the best islands in the world and how come our tourism is worst than our neighbouring countries? I can go on and on but I think there is no point...because I believe our government will not improve because they cannot be bothered about the rakyat. They are just full of themselves, just like some selfish brats...ok...stop~

Time to sleep...good night~

sleepy...

7:40AM就踏入了office....
眼睛還半蓋著....
腦袋還充滿著睡意...
好懷念家裡的床哦~